Sunday, July 20, 2008
i totally agree with yi sheng (my army friend who ooc just like me due to injuries) when he was complaining about how he felt like s*** watching our fellow batch boys going through hell, and yet all we can do is to sit at the sidelines and watch them as the pain on their faces ache our hearts.
"it's like being the star player of the team, and yet the coach refuses to let you play and end up causing the team to lose. that's the kind of feeling"the thought that we should have been there with them kept crossing our minds, but yet at the same time we clearly know that we should be where we are now. it's difficult to convince yourself sometimes.
though we're no longer together as a batch, the past few months have really been somewhat fulfilling for me. i've gained a bunch of new friends whom i can trust and work together with, that's all that mattered. and it's really nice to see the few of us trying to help them throughout hellweek. small actions like secretly giving them sweets to keep them awake talks alot about how we're still a part of them, not apart.
as for me, getting ooc-ed seem to be a hard fall. but this is no time to be stopping. even though it seems as if i can stay down and waste my life away for a while, i'd rather get up and start thinking of what i want to do with the time i have.
but before that there's something for me to look forward to of course.
block leave (yes i haven't had mine yet) and i'll be going to hokkaido then! HAHA!
aaron | 5:45 PM
