but i enjoyed my 200m workout on monday nevertheless. a particular tutorial (one of the 2 subjects i'm bad at) that day made me stressed up quite badly, especially since CTs are now just staring at me right in the face. but all was forgotten as i ran my hearts out during my workout. 32, 32, 32, 32, 32, 30. probably by far the most consistent intervals i've done, and i surprisingly i didn't die. just worn out.
but for now i need to ice my poor shin which has been taking all the impact every step i take.
it's time for feb to take it's leave and let march take over. and to kick start the 3rd month of this hellish j2 life we have the so-you-think-you-can-pass common tests. then there's:
i have a sudden craving for old chang kee's yam pie
thankfully chinese new year didn't cause my fitness to dip much. i guess my effort in trying to avoid too much new year goodies paid off well. but the strange thing is that all the ba gua, pineapple tarts etc. didn't seem to make my mouth water as much as the previous years... oh well.
trainings has been rather ok so far, though i failed to complete the workout on thursday because of a wrong choice i made on that morning. i think for me, getting cramps on my calf is a 前兆 for shin splint. i can feel my shin splint paying me a long term visit again, this time on both shins. yujia told me it's a good sign to get it now rather than during nationals, so i suppose i should be relieved. benjamin's running well, nareen's running form is improving significantly. but the major problem have not been solved: i'm still short of one last runner for 4x100m. headache? ouch.
sph relay is exactly a month away... i need a time trial, but then again, i'm not in the condition for a time trial...
以痛攻痛... 是吗?
looking at schoolwork, there's not much of a problem i suppose... i don't know why but the stress i'm getting for common tests compared to the stress from track is like 小巫见大巫. because i know i'm going to fail? i dont think that's the case... because i know i can pass? even more wrong. i dunno, but 我也不要去想太多啦, 船到桥头自然直.
"the happiest people seem to be those who are engaged in the present, rather than focused on future goals."
aaron | 11:01 AM
Monday, February 19, 2007
happy cny!
i dunno why but i don't feel a single tinge of happiness in me. the festive atmosphere, the joyous mood all seem so distant.
something's been bothering me lately... i don't know, i'll just not think about it... there's so many other stuff for me to worry about. homework, tests, track... never in my life have i been this lost before... i can't seem to find my focus anymore.
"it's like a whirlwind inside my head."
i know i've got to be strong. in this world, when everyone is moving ahead, nobody is going to stop and sympathise with you. nobody will be able to help you, only you can help yourself. if you break at this point, it's as good as reaching the end of the road.
go on...
get up...
c'mon...
get a grip...
yes...
open up the strides...
move those legs...
sprint
shout it out
scream
弱肉强食
你要做哪一者就由你自己决定...
aaron | 8:26 PM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
as i'm typing this entry now i can hear my grandma talking loudly on the phone, telling my aunts that i bought chocolates as valentine's day presents, as if implying to them that i got a gf or something along that line. well, i guess she's just acting her age, haha.
well, i just wanna say that i'm really grateful to all those who gave me all the gifts today. i really appreciate it, especially all those who went through all the effort to bake the cookies/brownies.
arigato gozaimasu
sometimes i just wonder if i'm doing enough as a friend to deserve all that.
anw today i did something for the first time in my life, something which most of you might have been doing all these years but i haven't - giving out valentine's day presents. no, not to any specific girl, just in case you're wondering. i figured that if i don't do it this year i wont get to do it for quite a while since i might be marching like a robot under the hot sun on valentine's day next year, or dying out somewhere in the forest. so... ya. when was the last time you did something for the first time?
valentine's day, the day which, for me, serves as a reminder of past mistakes. there's something which i need to keep telling myself, in order for things to go the way i want them to. i've told myself that i won't regret anymore, for this is the path i've chosen. i'll be waiting for that day to come though, but i know it's hard to tell when it will come, or will it ever come. whatever it is, i'll be waiting.
meanwhile, i know what is it i need to do now
happy valentine's day everyone =)
aaron | 6:58 PM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
and so the 'o' level results were out yesterday...
less than one year ago, i was just like them. waiting anxiously in the hall at queenstown, hoping that the principal will just hurry up and end her never seem to be ending speech, and then queueing up to receive our results slip. some simply heaved a sigh of relief, others were on cloud nine, and there were those who just broke down (i remember that i couldn't tell the tears of joy from the tears of sadness)
well, first and foremost, congratulations to those who did well for the 2006 o level's. heard that most from 07S08 did very well, and the j1 trackers were excellent too. omedeto! =)
for those who were disappointed in their result, i know that this fall is a very hard one. but keep mind that the harder the fall is, the stronger you'll become. a defeat should never be something to make you disheartened. instead, make it your source of motvation and reminder for the future. there is still much to be achieved, and you can only get better. something like, "score 4 As for your 'a' levels and prove your 'o' level results wrong" would be going through my mind now if i were you.
when all you got to keep is strong, move along, move along like i know you'd do
someone asked me, "what if your best is not enough?"
the best answer i can come up with now is, "i'll make sure i do whatever i can to make sure that it's enough." at the end of the day, no matter what happens, only you yourself know whether you've emerged victorious.
安啦,反正船到桥头自然直。此刻,最重要的就是把握现在。
meanwhile, here's a video taken from negativ's performance at talentime. their live performance was better but this will still do, though it's not very clear. they're a bunch of jokers who sure can sing.
for those who can't view it, the url is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cv52mAbjBoY
想哭就哭出来,哭完之后,就得上路了...
aaron | 11:10 AM
Monday, February 5, 2007
i'm like desperately trying to find ingredients for my rojak now, given a very little amount of time and resources, along with many limitations. nevermind if you don't understand (you most likely won't). but the thing is that it's definitely not going to be easy, but i'll work hard for it, to perfect this 'rojak' to the best of my abilities.
on a happier note, the lions managed to defend their title of the asean football championships yesterday thanks to a brillant strike from youngster khairul amri. i wouldn't say the better team won because honestly, the thais played a much better football. the singapore's defence was totally helpless against the thai's continual massacre. but the thais didn't take their chances and was punished heavily for that. what i admired was the lion's persistence. they fought hard and desperately (and i mean really desperately) defended their goal before they finally managed to find a breakthrough for a counter-attack, despite under intense pressure from the thai team's countless attacks and the stadium flooded with yellow ppt.
"don't crack under pressure", that's what they always say. isn't it?
the future of singapore football? there's much to look forward to i suppose.
ok enough of soccer. there's two tests this week. chem and physics. they always seem to come hand in hand and give me a major headache since they're both content heavy subjects. and g and e field is something which i'm still unable to grasp. oh boy...
i shall start studying now... 2,4,6-triaaronophenol out!
"If you're going through hell, keep going."
aaron | 9:12 PM
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