Saturday, April 5, 2008
swimming has never really been my forte. or should i say, i suck at it. my skills in treading water is simply horrendous. asking me to tread water for an extended period of time would be equivalent to asking me to drown. the last few swimming sessions at sembawang dive pool hadn't been a nice experience at all.
anyway i was telling someone about how it went and this is what i got:
A: i almost drowned! (i believe i wasn't exaggerating when i said it)
B:
but you made it!a simple line, but somehow it struck home. what she said was so true. all along, i was lost in the thought of how i almost fail, how my inability let me down, and i had completely forgotten that i had made it somehow.
it's a just a matter of how you think. people always say, look on the bright side of life. but i guess sometimes one must also know how to do it? haha, i still have much to learn. when i went to the pool again a few days later, a similar incident happened, but when i finally finished my task (again, i barely made it alive) and got out of the pool, i could not help but smile at myself...
oh well, i havent really been looking forward to swimming sessions all this while. i'd rather do countless pull ups and run for endless hours. but oh well, i'm going to be a naval diver somehow! how can i be afraid of the water? haha. "see it as a challenge", that was the message i got from khoo when i was talking to him. honestly, for now, i still couldn't see it that way. because getting punished now and then, being controlled and having to put up a nice show in front of the sergeants isn't something worth challenging. i wonder when will that thought change. i really hope i can see it the way he does too. will i be able to? i'll keep trying.
someone once told me: "ns is really just about when to talk, when not to talk"
is it really the case?
aaron | 7:12 PM
