Wednesday, February 20, 2008
i just caught a glimpse of life as a diver in NDU, a preview to what i would be facing in the months to come (thanks to one of my colleagues for showing me the video)
trackers if you're reading this, i can only say one thing: track training is seriously nothing, and i really mean NOTHING AT ALL, compared to training in the diving unit.
often when faced with challenges, instead of feeling afraid, i felt excited, eager to take on the challenge. however as the images and video footages of life in sembawang camp flashed across the laptop monitor, the feeling that gripped my heart then was beyond description.
then came the scenes of what actually went on in the infamous "hell week", the week which everyone's been telling me about.
if a picture speaks a thousand words, then that video spoked a million to me. as i saw the pain and torture the divers had to go through, my heart seriously ached for them (and myself). they were carrying the boats, lifting them again and again and flipping them over in the water. climbing up the ropes, push ups and sit ups for the entire week were considered the easier chores. they slept for hardly a few hours (for that week), were forced to crawl ridiculously on the ground for hours, and they were dumped into ice water at 3am in the morning. the pain in their faces, the tears that flowed said it all. that week probably felt like eternity.
at the end the video showed the divers receiving their paddles as a sign of having gone through and passed hell week. they were no doubt very much relieved, but more than that, they we ecstatic, and 100% thankful that everything was over. even i, as an audience, felt it for them.
my heart has been overwhelmed by fear, and i'm not shy to admit that. no doubt i'm afraid, very afraid.
1 month left, i have to work at it. remove that mental barrier and get my damn fitness back. oh no sorry, not just get my fitness back, i'll have to be stronger than i was last year, much much stronger and fitter. 9:14 for 2.4km has been something that has been way beyond my reach, but this time i'll have to try and hit it no matter what.
just whack, like there's no tomorrow.
aaron | 12:12 PM
